{"id":502,"date":"2021-06-22T09:59:57","date_gmt":"2021-06-22T13:59:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.ryerson.ca\/claudemckay\/?post_type=chapter&p=502"},"modified":"2022-02-03T09:50:06","modified_gmt":"2022-02-03T14:50:06","slug":"through-agony","status":"publish","type":"chapter","link":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/chapter\/through-agony\/","title":{"raw":"Through Agony","rendered":"Through Agony"},"content":{"raw":"I\r\n\r\nAll night, through the eternity of night,\r\nPain was my portion though I could not feel.\r\nDeep in my humbled heart you ground your heel,\r\nTill I was reft of even my inner light,\r\nTill reason from my mind had taken flight,\r\nAnd all my world went whirling in a reel.\r\nAnd all my swarthy strength turned cold like steel,\r\nA passive mass beneath your puny might.\r\nLast night I gave you triumph over me,\r\nSo I should be myself as once before,\r\nI marveled at your shallow mystery,\r\nAnd haunted hungrily your temple door.\r\nI gave you sum and substance to be free,\r\nOh, you shall never triumph any more!\r\n\r\nII\r\n\r\nI do not fear to face the fact and say,\r\nHow darkly-dull my living hours have grown,\r\nMy wounded heart sinks heavier than stone,\r\nBecause I loved you longer than a day!\r\nI do not shame to turn myself away\r\nFrom beckoning flowers beautifully blown,\r\nTo mourn your vivid memory alone\r\nIn mountain fastnesses austerely gray.\r\nThe mists will shroud me on the utter height,\r\nThe salty, brimming waters of my breast\r\nWill mingle with the fresh dews of the night\r\nTo bathe my spirit hankering to rest.\r\nBut after sleep I\u2019ll wake with greater might,\r\nOnce more to venture on the eternal quest.","rendered":"

I<\/p>\n

All night, through the eternity of night,
\nPain was my portion though I could not feel.
\nDeep in my humbled heart you ground your heel,
\nTill I was reft of even my inner light,
\nTill reason from my mind had taken flight,
\nAnd all my world went whirling in a reel.
\nAnd all my swarthy strength turned cold like steel,
\nA passive mass beneath your puny might.
\nLast night I gave you triumph over me,
\nSo I should be myself as once before,
\nI marveled at your shallow mystery,
\nAnd haunted hungrily your temple door.
\nI gave you sum and substance to be free,
\nOh, you shall never triumph any more!<\/p>\n

II<\/p>\n

I do not fear to face the fact and say,
\nHow darkly-dull my living hours have grown,
\nMy wounded heart sinks heavier than stone,
\nBecause I loved you longer than a day!
\nI do not shame to turn myself away
\nFrom beckoning flowers beautifully blown,
\nTo mourn your vivid memory alone
\nIn mountain fastnesses austerely gray.
\nThe mists will shroud me on the utter height,
\nThe salty, brimming waters of my breast
\nWill mingle with the fresh dews of the night
\nTo bathe my spirit hankering to rest.
\nBut after sleep I\u2019ll wake with greater might,
\nOnce more to venture on the eternal quest.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":251,"menu_order":76,"template":"","meta":{"pb_show_title":"on","pb_short_title":"","pb_subtitle":"","pb_authors":[],"pb_section_license":""},"chapter-type":[48],"contributor":[],"license":[],"class_list":["post-502","chapter","type-chapter","status-publish","hentry","chapter-type-numberless"],"part":346,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters\/502","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/chapter"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/251"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters\/502\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":503,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters\/502\/revisions\/503"}],"part":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/parts\/346"}],"metadata":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapters\/502\/metadata\/"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=502"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"chapter-type","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/pressbooks\/v2\/chapter-type?post=502"},{"taxonomy":"contributor","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/contributor?post=502"},{"taxonomy":"license","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/pressbooks.library.torontomu.ca\/claudemckay\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/license?post=502"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}